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It crept on me like a serpent. It stayed on my shoulders and reared its head up, looking intently in front me, surveying those who surround me.

Once I was nobody. I can slip in and slip out without anyone knowing. My voice never mattered (and never been heard before). This is a choice I made after leaving The Firm. Power burned me. Fame blinded me.

But I am on the same path again. A creature born as a shark will always be a shark. I now prominently show my coronet. My voice is slowly being heard. My ideas are slowly being considered.

In every kingdom, there would always be royalties. You must bide your time lest you be accused of usurping power. But in all kingdoms, there would always be jesters, soothsayers and loyal soldiers. A prince yearning for the crown must know who these are underneath the garb.

I felt the power some days past after making a critical decision that would have changed the lives of some for a few hours. It was a difficult one to make, emotionally. The stolid equation was clear : hand down the verdict, assert your political will and see the kingdom walls stand the test of times.

But it did not come without a cost. Few jewels of friendship I hold so dearly were lost among the rubble. I searched after the dust has settled but they were not to be found. Perhaps, they are in hiding? Or has abandoned me for good? I cried over the lost. The weak child peeped through the mask of iron I wear every day. But as said, it was a peep, no longer than that. For many others are counting on unbiased decisions I would have to make. The iron mask was put on again.

I am afraid for as I make these decisions, my best friend, my other self, my prince, is in a far-away kingdom no Gandalf horse can take me to him. There are times when I know I stand vulnerable. Vulnerable not only to vultures who lie in wait till I make the limb-crushing ill decision, but vulnerable also to my own self – I might be so true to my responsibility and end up as stolid as the algebraic equations I once hated in high school.

I fear a moment when you are so blinded by your own luminescence, you no longer see the truth around you. I fear a moment when you shine so brightly, so quickly, you burn out ahead of the others. I fear a moment when your pull is so strong it creates galaxies but sucks you in yourself.

This is not new to me. I must learn from past mistakes. File the budding of horns while I still can. There are too many mistakes and too little time and one must learn from the mistakes of others.

I will continue to struggle in the snow. To work in the darkness while the numbing coldness of the breeze kisses my cheeks all the time. I can try to please as much people as I can, but I know it would be in vain. Let me be true to the cause without losing sight of my loved ones and friends. I just wish we stand the test of time.

I just wish the snow would melt soon.

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A Decade of Friendship

I heard this commercial on the radio this morning about a car care product. One line went like ‘it’s been twenty years!’ Apparently, the setting was in a reunion of college friends. I suddenly remember how long have my college classmates and I been friends?

I told you before that I went to a state university in Sta Mesa, Manila and took up accountancy. Upon registration, the professor in charge of assigning sections for freshmen asked me if I graduated from highschool with honors. Being the mayabang person that I am, I said that I graduated Salutatorian and the recipient of the then-Vice President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo Leadership Award. She didn’t look up from her notes and scribbled ‘H-1’ on my card. H for Honor.

My classmates were a mix of rich and fresh-from-province crowd. You can feel the intelligence of these people filling the air. I am in the good crowd. Soon, the more than 40 students in our section would be cut in half because you need an average of 1.75 to stay in the H section. I made it through. In fact, I would make it in the H section until graduation.

But the prestige of being in the H section is nothing compared to the friendship I made with all my classmates. We were less than 30 then (students from other sections joined us in the second semester of our freshman year) and we were together until we finished the course.

My friends shared all kinds of college joys and sorrows, successes and defeats. We were together studying, wiping our bleeding noses due to the difficult exams, through break-ups, through falling in and out of love. We were there when someone was held-up by a thief, when someone was hospitalized and thought her future is ruined because she failed to take one quiz!, when our Law professor stormed out of the room because we were playing games at the back of the class.

We were together in review school, dreaming together about passing the exams, crying together in churches, sharing crumbs because our allowance could not keep up with the 24-hour review we were doing.

We were together when the results came out and some of us passed, some of us did not. We were together when we were hired by our first audit firms, when we received our first pays, when we resigned from our first jobs.

It has been so long. I never thought I would meet the people I am sure I would like to share my life with. My friends. Who are already my family.

Some of us have their own families now. Some still do not have lovelives. Some have gone to be so rich, others have become more gorgeous with age. But deep inside, we are all still the freshmen we were ten years ago.

It has been ten years. So much has happened. And I am ready to face the next ten with them.

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